It is fun for me to think through spirituality in a logical and scientific way. My mother posits that once we die, that is all. Body and soul turn into dust. That is Old Testament and a very legitimate way of looking at things, but for me, the math, the science does not work.
Jesus said that we connect directly to God through the Holy Spirit or the Spirit of Truth. In the end, that connection is all that matters. See Matthew 12:31-32 and Mark 3:29, and John 16: 12-15. (I use the NIV).
Prayer is the way to connect to the Holy Spirit. Not to ask for things, but to ask for guidance. That is what I came to call the "Harmony," mostly because non-religious people (aka Mom) freak out at words like "Holy Spirit" because of the layered history of misinformation placed on that and other Biblical words.
That is where I created the words at the top of this blog, expanded to what they are today:
"Do what you know in your heart is the right thing to do, regardless of your feared earthly consequences and regardless of what your minister, mom or friends say you should do, because that is the Spirit communicating with you and to do so will keep you in harmony with all (originally God's people, but now) all souls."
In the Old Testament, God had emotions. He got mad, frustrated, sad, happy, etc. I thought, does God have emotions? As I have read it, there is a lot less of this in the New Testament, but the Father is still said to be happy or angry from time to time. He just does not show it with major catastrophes.
In the Old Testament, God could move physical things and make weather and floods happen. Can God control physical things like that? Again, there is very little separating of rivers or destroying of towns or leading the Jews in battle in the New Testament, but Jesus does heal the sick and even the dead.
In the Old Testament, God guided people through deserts, talked to them through bushes, in dreams and directly almost face to face. Does God act like that? There is not much of that in the New Testament.
In the 2000 plus years since Jesus, there has been almost none of any of that stuff. Perhaps I missed it.
So then I had to ask what came to me as the core question no one discussed, "WHAT is this God?" I spoke to ministers, who had no answer. "It is enough to have faith that there is a God." they say. I thought, well then why not lots of gods for all the things we used to have gods for. Of course we still have them, Mother Nature, Father Time, and all the saints, for example. Books I have read refer to God. No explanation as to what we are talking about. Amazingly, no one I spoke to seemed to even sit down and ponder this question, "If there is a God and only 1 god, WHAT is God."
I went back to Jesus. He said that the Spirit of Truth is all that matters. Well then, what composes this spirit? How can I prove it exists at all? I derived my Proof of God analysis which is posted earlier in this blog. I thought it through over many years, but also spoke to some physicists about the science side of it. Basically, and you should go read it in its entirety, it proves there is an operator of our machine-bodies that is not physical or energy as we currently understand those concepts, but something different - our spirit, our soul - but not scientifically different.
And, we know that the spirit of life that makes us alive and conscious and able to drive our machine-bodies, leaves us when we die. That is the essence of death. Since we know through science that things do not go away, matter and energy cannot be destroyed, just altered, that similarly total spiritual existence must survive our deaths. Everything we currently understand about physics and biology are located there in the corpse. But dying people have been weighed just as they die, and there is an infinitesimal loss of weight just as the person passes away. Interesting. To me, and other theorists, this is the spirit of life leaving the body.
People who have died on a table report that their conscious selves leave their bodies and can see their corpses laying there on the table being resuscitated. (Note that doctors still heal death) They report seeing a bright light and following it. I am a deep believer in "ghosts." I grew up in a haunted house. We experienced them first hand. I believe that these are the spirits of a former life, the driver of the machine-body still hanging around for some reason.
As much as I contemplate it, the math and science, as I have delved into it, does not allow me to conclude that the soul dies and disappears from existence upon death. To me, like all energy and matter, it survives, just in a different form.
So then what? Off to heaven with God? Well that returned me first to WHAT is God. Is he even a He? Of course not. Does he sit on a throne with Jesus beside him in some kingdom in the skies (see Zeus)? I did not see that. It is mythical and does not fit my scientific analysis of this situation. There is no physical kingdom in heaven with pearly gates that we go live in when we die, and similarly no hell. That is magic and we no longer believe in magic, at least I do not.
I did the analysis in my brain and through readings of the Bible and other books, some on other religions and some on scientific issues, and over many months I came to believe that the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Truth, the spirit of life was just that, a spirit and that is truly "God." This, in my mind, is a provable aspect of our overall physical existence, like other as yet unexplained things such as anti-matter, dark energy, quantum mechanics, and the Big Bang. Actually adding this sort of unpredictable spiritual quotient of life helps to explain a lof of equations that do not otherwise stay on point unless they are focused on inanimate things in space. Even there, we find entropies that miss the calculations. Are those the effects of this life spirit? Beyond this entry to contemplate, but I am sure I will get to it some day.
I concluded that each of the spirits of life that occupy our bodies while we are alive, are integral parts of the larger Spirit. All living things from Amoeba and bacteria to humans that have a spirit of life running their body-machines, and I do not know when that happens, are part of that Spirit. That is why we have a direct connection. That is why the "holy spirit" guides us. Not because it is a mysitical power or a magical guy in the sky. It is because that Spirit is the essence of the driver of our machine-bodies. That is why, in my opinion, love is the connection and not greed or desire.
Note, we are not integrated into that Spirit, but connected to it. We can chose, perhaps more than any other creature, to not follow what we know would keep us in harmony with all other souls. We can ignore the connection to the spirit. Our brains are phenomenal computers, which we can use to do the right thing, our own thing, or what others say we should do. We have choice. Our drivers have the wheel. They do not have to listen to the Spirit in the back seat if they do not want to. I suspect most people do not.
I believe that if we could tap into that spiritual internet of all of the souls in the world and perhaps well beyond, we could make life on this earth amazingly better. If we were guided by the overall love of all souls for each other, perhaps things like war and greed would go away. Perhaps we would learn that war and greed are not bad things, but part of the balance of life. Who knows. Not there yet.
So what happens after we die. I have had people ask me whether we stay as ourselves or are swallowed up into a larger spirit and mixed in and lose our individual identities. That would be the same as what Mom postulates. We, as separate humans, go away even though the spirit essences continue. Perhaps parts of our spirit are bundled randomly into a new life spirit as it enters into another newly born machine-body. Or perhaps our same life spirit survives into life after life or reincarnation like some eastern religions believe. Hmmmm.
Lots of next things to think about.
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